happy birthday...

happy brithday mang, though you've gone for good just want you to know you're in my thoughts constantly...i miss you so much...love you...

much love,
your daughter

news...

i've made a new blog account last week and am ready to jump over the other side and wont be putting any update over here, thanks to those who follow..thanks:)..and im going to leave this one just like this:)...God bless:)

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i was reading the heartcry magazines and came to a story of a leper from amazon who preached the Gospel and brought many souls to Christ till the day he went to be with the Lord. Lord i want to read and memorize Your word as if im going to be blind soon like the simple man in amazon who was used by a Great God:)....

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"A relationship with JESUS is the one thing that make sense when nothing else do"
Spoken by a widow of a pastor who was shot to death

tadaaaa!!!

i just recieved another call and guess what?...i can smell another trouble is coming...hehehhe...seriously...it's coming...just wait and see...man, this whole situation becomes more and more complicated and funny...yes funny...we'll just wait and see....

His love endures forever....

This morning the Lord awaken me with this psalm 136...
the whole chapter...actually im not really enjoying every moment of my life this past few weeks, it's like a thorn in my flesh and this morning, early in the morning, yes early in the morning, where im not ready to start my day suddenly i recieved a very heart breaking news...God!!!!!!!!!! i need You.....in all these nonsense crazy weeks i always reminded myself this is a character building process...man, if you want GOd to build Your innerman you must be willing for God to break You first...my only comfort in this stressing moment of course the Holy Spirit and the Word of God... whenever i felt like i want to blow up ill quickly search for my Bible and read a portion of it...im not perfect, i make mistake everyday but guess what? His love endures forever for His people... i woke up this morning greeted by God thru psalm 136, i believe it's a love letter from God telling me that first of all He has done great and mighty things in the past and He will and can do the same in this generation to show his glory...i love how the psalmist wrote it...everytime they mentioned the power of God and His mighty acts then the people will echo "His love endures forever"....2nd thing is that i should exalt Him in this hour, that i should sing like the psalmist, to tell my heart and my mind that my God is YHWH, to recall His mighty deeds and sing about His glory, His attributes and so on...ppphhheeewwww!!!...ill praise You in this little storm O my God...

dear Lord...

Lord i need a break..these things make me nuts!...
remind your heart sheila

2 corinthians 12:9
and he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for My strenght is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will i rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.

help me Lord not to sin against You in this crazy moments,
help me to look beyond...
Your grace will pull me through,
Your grace will pull me through....

im thinking...

Lord i dont know if it is your will...i want to stop leading in worship...i dont know why, but i plan after leading this upcoming church dedication i want to stop leading in worship, i want to concentrate on two things that really stirs my heart, two things that really excite me, two things that im passionate about at this moment of my life....
1)prayer and intercession
2)mission, to abound in love and good work
i just dont like to be on stage anymore and there's an urgency in my heart to concentrate on other things, but still i do not want to rush things...i dont want to be moved by my emotions and things that i've seen but i want to be led by Your Spirit...i dont know, sometimes i think that christians have given the younger generation wrong perspective about genuine christianity.... i've seen many youths desire to be on stage, play music and all those stuff...well that's good, nothing wrong with that, we also shouldnt keep the talent God gave us to minister before Him, to bring Him glory through what He has deposited in us BUT if we make it our main purpose in life and ignore God's calling upon our life, ignore the great commision, i think we should think twice...i've seen christians youth fighting with each other just to take the position to be on stage..it's like what?! christians are not meant to be on stage, we have become more like an artist instead of a minister of God... you know, it bothers me when christians are so "syok sendiri" with their thing enclosed in our gated community and soooooo busy with our "christian activities" and don't really have compassion and care about the perishing and didnt take heed what the Lord have commanded us....

Luke 4
the Spirit of the Lord is on me,
because he has anointed me
to preach the good news to the poor.
He has sent me to proclaim freedom
for the prisoners and recovery
of sight for the blind,
to released the oppressed,
to proclaim the year of the Lord's favor

Mark 16:15
and he said unto them, Go ye into all the world, and preach the Gospel to every creature. He that believeth and is baptized shall be saved....

though not all of us are called to be in the five fold ministries but we all, christians, are called to be a full time minister of God be it in ou working place, school, campuses market place etc, a love servant for Christ. There is more to being a christian than just standing in the pulpit and being on stage...like i've said before there's one day while praying and worshipping suddenly my interest to be on stage died and my interest for the cross has increased...

i just dont want to put myself too much on stage, i'd rather be on the street, slums (though we dnt really have one)...am i being selfish Lord? Lord if you will for me to still be leading your people than ignite the passion once again, if you want me to move into another field then let this desire fade away and make me concentrate only what you what me to do...

and again i dont want to rush myself..i will wait upon thee...
GOD,LET YOUR WILL BE DONE....

pray

(my heart is troubled lately about something which i do not want to explain more details coz im too lazy to type it all...so ill just spill everything out, everything that's in my mind)
see in the natural, act in the Spiritual!
it talks about prayer, since we christian, we are not fighting against flesh and blood but against the unclean spirit, the evil one and it is not through our flesh and human flesh but through prayer. i have come to a situation where i hate the most but i know i need to go through this stage, whatever it is as long as in the end God gets the glory! it's not a situation where man fighting against me, but christian brother against christian brother, believer against believer...i mean come on, do we really need to argue with each other opinion? who's right, who's wrong? is that the most important thing right now? we are so quick to point finger rather than to humble ourself...we're living in the last days, and the gospel must be preached! do we really need to fight for our rights? if it's for the gospel sake i'll cheer for you but it's merely our flesh opinion that tries to break others and destroy others, the funny part of being a human is we thought we knew everything, ok that is too general, let's just say being a Christian...we thought when we went through some trials and pain and suffering, we thought we knew what it meant to be Christian, we thought we really know EVERYTHING! and other's ought to listen to us...gosh, we are so ignorant and proud with our wickedness andwith our so called "spiritual ideas"and i dont know what's going on inside their mind backstabbing against each other.the more i live in this wicked and evil time the more i realized that there are two diff kind of christians. first, those who called themselves BELIEVERS which makes them just the same with the devil because the devil also believe that exsistent of God. Second, Disciple, this kind of people is very rare to find nowadays, i myself, many times struggle to be Christ's disciple coz it's not easy but i rather loss everything to become His disciple rather than just to believe without obeying Christ..i was dissapointed to be honest when i knew this thing, but as i've said earlier im not fighting against any man, im not fighting against flesh and blood but against the spirit that causes this division, chaos and confusion and i am mad! seriously mad with this deceiving spirit...and it is also vital for me to keep myself holy, and Lord please give me discernment. i do not want to be move by man's word but i only want to obey the Word of God...i felt helpless but GOd you can change and turned the worst situation and the worst sinner like me for Your glory. i felt disgusted when man come to me and condemn and judge others, servant of God and exalt himself for what he has done for Christ, comparing his 'successes' and service in Christ with others, i think that's the most carnal and evil thing and without realizing we are stealing the glory for ourself...o God forgive us!...

Lord i pray that you will open our eyes,
open our mind, you resist those who are proud
and love those who are humble. God you know
our heart, you know every person's heart, i dont want
to judge but i ask for justice, rebuke us gently,
God confront our heart! strip off every deceitful
tongue and words..i know you're doing something in our
midst, i know you are breaking things that can be broken,
you are shaking things that can be shaken...
that through this situation i will also be
able to learn and draw myself closer to You
i pray those whose eyes are being closed by the
lies of the enemies, GOd answer me not because
i deserve it, not because we earn it but for Your
Holy Name sake, let your name be glorify!
Amen

me update...

last monday i was extremely tired and exhausted..though my mind was still active but my body couldnt take it anymore so while practicing our worship session suddenly i felt my hand was numb and turned into blue color, i was shocked but i assured myself that it's normal (though it's sooo not normal) and tried to squezze my hand few times, do some hand stretches but still i felt there were no blood running through my hand, my hand was cold and i just felt that it going to explode...i mean something like that...so yeah, i told my leader im going to take a break...my hand was numb for about 20minutes, it looks like and feel like a dead man's hand, lifeless. i went to the washroom but still nothing change, in the end i ask permission to leave the practice session earlier...still, my hand was cold and blue, recalling back i couldnt figure how it can turned like that...the next day i went to the clinic for check up and i called my sister and talked to her about this...so they gave me this link...a kind of disease that i've never heard...weird...but i also admit that this past few months i have stretched my body to the max...i didnt get enough sleep, i was so stressed up with so many things, work and others...i kept running here and there until i forgot to really 'breath'...my body is giving me a message to relax, to rest...i took off from my work for 2days and just rest..sleep, pray and eat...

it's called Raynaud's Disease...
you can google it and ask uncle wiki's help (wikipedia)...

theme: Esther...

our theme for the upcoming church dedication is taken from the book of Esther, after one months praying and struggling in the end i felt peace after my friend told me the theme for our upcoming event, though it was a last minute thing because the music theme has practiced earlier weeks before our overseer informed us the theme. this past few weeks the Lord has taught me that He is sovereign, when my friend shared about their meeting, she encouraged me to read the book of Esther and pray about it...so i did...that night, it was sunday night, upon arriving home i open my bible and just study about the book, the story, pray until midnight... im not alone that night, the Holy Spirit was there, teaching me, guiding me, revealing things and etc. to be honest and as you can read in my previous blog, i've shared my thoughts and fears, uncertainty for this upcoming event, but the moment they told me that the theme have been changed instead of feeling more scared and terrified coz it cost us to change our songs and others, i felt peace and joy. in my physical eyes we lack in so many areas but in my Spirit im rest assured...

the key word is taken from chapter 4 where Mordecai told queen Esther
... "and who knows but that you have come to royal position for such a time as this?"....

and i love how Esther responded to Mordecai
... "when this is done, i will go to the king, even though it is against the law.
AND IF I PERISH, I PERISH" ...

the Lord has appointed His bride (churches) for such a time as this. we are living in the last days, we are in the verge of this culture, in a crossroad. we have two option here, either we rise up as a church and live the anti thesis life and willingly live a life abandon to God or we can fold our arms and just go with the flow of this evil culture and watch others dragging their feet to hell.

we need more people like Esther who will say "if i perish, I perish"
people who are willing to stand in the gap for their people and their land.
we need more people who will be radical about God and His gospel.
it's no more about Me, Myself and I...it's about being passionate for Christ
and having the compassion for the lost.To be mission minded, to be Kingdom minded!

though the book of Esther didnt mentioned the name of God but God include this book to be part of the Bible, to show us, the next generation that He will not fail His people. he has promised Abraham that He will watch over His people and true enough, He is faithful to His promises. As i read through the book of Esther i can see the hand of God in that intense situation, and i learned that a person's decision truly can bring an impact to the next generation. If Esther doesnt willing to die for her people surely the remnant that lives in that place will be wipe out in just a day but her selfless decision changes the course of history.

to be continued.....

something from my heart

"the clock is ticking

and the time is fleeing

death and hell are moving

Christ will return" PW

Christ indeed will return, whether you like it or not.im wondering this past few days, i was tired physically and emotionally, im tired of living in this evil and wicked generation and i started to wonder how it would be on that day when Christ shall descend from heaven, to be with Him where all weariness and pain shall cease, that day when Christ and i will be united and together with all believers. like Paul washer said it would be either Wonderful and absolutely terrying, it depends on which side you are in, are you for Christ or against Him?...how would i feel when i saw Him face to face? when he come riding on the clouds, shining like the sun, how would my heart feel? even just to think that very day lightens up my day and make me smile because it would be a glorious day ever in history for those who put their trust in Him. it would be a glorious day when i shall see Him descend from heaven to take His people. everything will be worth sacrifing, worth dying for when i shall see the Son of Man comes and take me home, all the pain, suffering i've went hrough in life, all the hellish moment i've been through, all of these will worth nothing when i shall see the Lamb who was slain for my sake come as a King and a Judge...Lord i cant wait for you to take me home:)

lalala....

the visitor counter hit 777 today

at 10.56am

25th Feb 2010...

what a perfect number for me :)

my prayer...

prodigal son....

God work in mysterious ways, i saw last week my friend came to church, a friend that i've been praying for this past few years. and im still praying for others who have gone astray that will turn to God again and run back to their first love, Jesus.

i will waste my life....

the song below is my prayer at this point of my life

we forgot many times that the road to Christ is narrow,

Lord many times we are caught up by the

unnecessary things in life,

all the petty petty things that have blinded

our eyes to see the Cross, to see greater things.

God make me your prisoner, only when i became your captive

there i will taste TRUE FREEDOM...

this i ask in Jesus name

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i will waste my life,
ill be tested and tried
with no regrets inside of me
just to find im at Your feet

i'll leave my father's house
and i'll leave my mother
ill leave all i have known
and i'll have no other

i am in love with You
there is no cost,
i am in love with You
there is no loss
i am in love with You
i want to take Your name
i am in love with You
i want to cling to You, Jesus
just let me cling to You,Jesus

i'll say goodbye to my father, my mother
ill turn my back on every other lover and
i'll press on, yes i'll press on

misty edwards (c)

me jumping...love this pics:)

countdown....

25 days left before the church opening...and we all are nervous and i personally am scared.seriosuly i told GOd the last thing i want to do is to stand before thousands of people and lead them in worship..im not saying that im lazy or i do not want to serve GOd, no...it's just i do not want to put myself in front, i'd rather be in my clostet room and just pray...and pray and pray..and just fellowship with him, interceed, travail in my prayer and just sit at the feet of Jesus...it's truly a beautiful moment...it's kinda addicting also...

tom inglis supposed to lead the worship for this coming event but he's gonna be in south africa in march if im not mistaken so we have to take his place...so yeah...God works in mysterious ways...many times you felt that you're not ready but GOd saw the opposite, sometimes we thought we are ready but God knows we are not...so yeah...ill just faitfully serve Him...to lead His peole into worship, lead his people right into the mercy seat...

so what should i do with this 25days?...what should i do within this 25days?... i should consecrate my life...so yeah..im going restrain myself from few stuff...fasting, not just in food but also internet thingy...just want to exclude my self, exclude my mind from all these..and i want my mind to be filled with the word of GOD, with everything that is pure and lovely...

phillipians 4: 8
finally brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are godd report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, THINK of these things.

worship is more than singing songs, more than clapping our hands, more than creating melodies, it's more than the music and cool gadget...though it's also our expressions of love towards him..but worship is our lifestyle, how we conduct ourself, how we obey him, how we keep ourself holy for His namesake...worship is beyond the four corner walls of the church...it's about the condition of my heart and also to help those who are poor, to release those who are in bondage. to set the captives free, to defend the right of the orphans and the widows..to love the unloved and reach those who are perishing...it's about how intimate you are in your relationship with Christ, and when we stand on the pulpit the spirit will manifest itself trhough your life as you lead them they will feel the presence of God because everyday you keep the anointing and his presence became real in you and it'll overflow as you open your mouth and heart as you ascend with your songs to the throne of grace....

25days left...Lord please take this moment to examine my heart, my thougts, my motives...deal with me, keep my heart in the right direction..heal anything that has been torn down, heal and build again this altar of yours....

guess what?!

i was praying and waiting upon God this whole month for our upcoming church dedication and yes, the Lord did spoke to me thru his words in genesis. but i desire more, for a new revelation, new word from him...Manna...fresh word from the Lord... a word that will quicken my spirit and soul..a word that will bring me into another different level, word that will change my perspective, a word that will draw me closer into the reality of Christ.

and yesterday while i was reading the articles i came to this message where leonard ravenhill shared, as i read it halfway i left my table and work and went to the toilet because i just felt i want to worship Him and need to have a quiet moment, then this verse came and it quicken me, there is this "majestic feeling", the 'awe' was there (goosebumps) i knew right at that moment that this is the word, this is it!

philippians 3:10

that i may KNOW Him,

and the power of His RESSURECTION,

and the FELLOWSHIP of His sufferings,

being made conformable unto His death

though Leonard Ravenhill did an amazing work in preaching this verse out, but im not content... sound selfish...but i dont care, i want GOd to reveal the meaning of this verse from diferent angle , i dont want second hand blessing, i want a fresh revelation from Him and i know my God can do it and im going to seek, knock and ask until i grasp it, until this WORD OF LIFE change my inner man, transform me from glory to glory and from strenght to strength...

i cannot explain the words in my heart, but there's something that i believe the Lord wants to reveal through this word, so God unveil the truth, let me be transform by Your Word....

countdown....

26days before the official dedication,
grand opening of our church...
and i am freakin scared...going to lead the worship in session...
we only have 3more weeks to practice and gosh!..
LORD divine intervention...and we havent fixed our intro
and all the stuff...the vocal, the harmony, the musician
and other stuff....i, personally am fully depending on GOD...
Lord go ahead of me if not i have no desire to stand before
thousands of them...if You will not be there then remove me
also from the stage...i have no desire to stand before men
if you're not with me...if your presence doesnt go with us
i will not move an inch....GOD!!!!!!

yeay!

today in history...
18th feb 2010
2.10pm
it has reached 700 viewers...
thanks to all who viewed my insignificant blog...
hehehhehe....

WELCOME!!! welcome baby gwen...welcome to our family!!

hhahahha..suman!

baby gwen..you're getting bigger and "chubbier"

ATTENTION UNTHEIA

ok this is the introduction...hehhehehe....

view from upper seat...

left view...

right view...

main stage

taaa daaaa!!!this is the chair....

upper view and the PA room (left)

behind the stage and the changing room

this is the changing room....

another door for the changing room this one connects you to the backyard and toilet

joanne!!!...hehehehe

hanging out in church:)

miss my best friend joanne...she came and sleep over in church:)

"acting cool"...hahaha..it didnt turned out as what we want...haahhaaa

rain rain go away, come again another day....

the cloud is getting darker, it's going to rain soon... hhmmmm..down memory lane, i remember those days where we used to go out and play, dance in the rain even when we were a teenager we used to do that...but yeah, now things have changed, the enviroment have changed we have grown up...hehhehe..but one thing remain we still do love to dance in the rain..we planned last year with my cousin...but unfortunately there were no rain...hehehhe...next time i guess...there will always be a next time:)

mi familia...

this is our eldest sister...LANNEL

the second one... VANESSA

She's the youngest....ANTHEA...

i miss them bunches!!!.....hugs!

lawaks!

i stumble upon this video "top 10 things girls do turn me off" by pastor Justin... i never heard of him but his video was hillarious..i mean seriously, girls should watch it...Christian girls..highly recommended by me...it was funny but at the same time he have his point, and personally im really blessed by what he shared...

be blessed!:)
you can just click his page on my videos down there....*scroll down*

forgive us...

To all my nonbelieving, sort-of-believing,
and used-to-be-believing friends:
I feel like I should begin with a confession.

I am sorry that so often the biggest obstacle to
God has been Christians. Christians who have had
so much to say with our mouths and so little to
show with our lives. I am sorry that so often we
have forgotten the Christ of our Christianity.

Forgive us. Forgive us for the embarrassing
things we have done in the name of God.
The other night I headed into downtown Philly
for a stroll with some friends from out of town.
We walked down to Penn's Landing along the river,
where there are street performers, artists, musicians.
We passed a great magician who did some pretty sweet
tricks like pour change out of his iPhone, and then
there was a preacher. He wasn't quite as captivating
as the magician. He stood on a box, yelling into a
microphone, and beside him was a coffin with a fake
dead body inside. He talked about how we are all going
to die and go to hell if we don't know Jesus.
Some folks snickered. Some told him to shut the hell up.
A couple of teenagers tried to steal the dead body in the
coffin. All I could do was think to myself, I want to jump
up on a box beside him and yell at the top of my lungs,
"God is not a monster." Maybe next time I will.

The more I have read the Bible and studied the life of Jesus,
the more I have become convinced that Christianity spreads
best not through force but through fascination.
But over the past few decades our Christianity,
at least here in the United States, has become less
and less fascinating. We have given the atheists less
and less to disbelieve. And the sort of Christianity many
of us have seen on TV and heard on the radio looks less
and less like Jesus.

At one point Gandhi was asked if he was a Christian,
and he said, essentially, "I sure love Jesus, but the Christians
seem so unlike their Christ." A recent study showed that the
top three perceptions of Christians in the U. S. among
young non-Christians are that Christians are
1) antigay,
2) judgmental, and
3) hypocritical.

So what we have here is a bit of an image crisis,
and much of that reputation is well deserved.
That's the ugly stuff. And that's why I begin
by saying that I'm sorry.

Now for the good news.
I want to invite you to consider that maybe the
televangelists and street preachers are wrong —
and that God really is love. Maybe the fruits of
the Spirit really are beautiful things like peace,
patience, kindness, joy, love, goodness, and not the
ugly things that have come to characterize religion,
or politics, for that matter. (If there is anything I have
learned from liberals and conservatives, it's that you
can have great answers and still be mean...
and that just as important as being right is being nice.)

The Bible that I read says that God did not send Jesus
to condemn the world but to save it... it was because
"God so loved the world." That is the God I know,
and I long for others to know. I did not choose to devote
my life to Jesus because I was scared to death of hell or
because I wanted crowns in heaven... but because he is good.
For those of you who are on a sincere spiritual journey,
I hope that you do not reject Christ because of Christians.
We have always been a messed-up bunch, and somehow
God has survived the embarrassing things we do in His name.
At the core of our "Gospel" is the message that Jesus came
"not [for] the healthy... but the sick." And if you choose Jesus,
may it not be simply because of a fear of hell or hope for
mansions in heaven.

Don't get me wrong, I still believe in the afterlife,
but too often all the church has done is promise the world
that there is life after death and use it as a ticket to ignore
the hells around us. I am convinced that the Christian Gospel
has as much to do with this life as the next, and that the message
of that Gospel is not just about going up when we die but about
bringing God's Kingdom down. It was Jesus who taught us to pray
that God's will be done "on earth as it is in heaven." On earth.

One of Jesus' most scandalous stories is the story of the Good
Samaritan. As sentimental as we may have made it, the original
story was about a man who gets beat up and left on the side of
the road. A priest passes by. A Levite, the quintessential religious
guy, also passes by on the other side (perhaps late for a meeting
at church). And then comes the Samaritan... you can almost
imagine a snicker in the Jewish crowd. Jews did not talk to
Samaritans, or even walk through Samaria. But the Samaritan
stops and takes care of the guy in the ditch and is lifted up as
the hero of the story. I'm sure some of the listeners were ticked.
According to the religious elite, Samaritans did not keep the
right rules, and they did not have sound doctrine...
but Jesus shows that true faith has to work itself out in a
way that is Good News to the most bruised and broken
person lying in the ditch.

It is so simple, but the pious forget this lesson constantly.
God may indeed be evident in a priest, but God is just as
likely to be at work through a Samaritan or a prostitute.
In fact the Scripture is brimful of God using folks like a lying
prostitute named Rahab, an adulterous king named David...
at one point God even speaks to a guy named Balaam
through his donkey. Some say God spoke to Balaam through
his ass and has been speaking through asses ever since.
So if God should choose to use us, then we should be grateful
but not think too highly of ourselves. And if upon meeting
someone we think God could never use, we should think again.
After all, Jesus says to the religious elite who looked down on
everybody else: "The tax collectors and prostitutes are
entering the Kingdom ahead of you." And we wonder what
got him killed?

I have a friend in the UK who talks about "dirty theology" —
that we have a God who is always using dirt to bring life and
healing and redemption, a God who shows up in the most
unlikely and scandalous ways. After all, the whole story begins
with God reaching down from heaven, picking up some dirt,
and breathing life into it. At one point, Jesus takes some mud,
spits in it, and wipes it on a blind man's eyes to heal him.
(The priests and producers of anointing oil were not happy
that day.)

In fact, the entire story of Jesus is about a God who did not just
want to stay "out there" but who moves into the neighborhood,
a neighborhood where folks said, "Nothing good could come."
It is this Jesus who was accused of being a glutton and drunkard
and rabble-rouser for hanging out with all of society's rejects,
and who died on the imperial cross of Rome reserved for bandits
and failed messiahs. This is why the triumph over the cross was
a triumph over everything ugly we do to ourselves and to others.
It is the final promise that love wins.

It is this Jesus who was born in a stank manger in the middle of a
genocide. That is the God that we are just as likely to find in the
streets as in the sanctuary, who can redeem revolutionaries
and tax collectors, the oppressed and the oppressors... a God who
is saving some of us from the ghettos of poverty, and some of us
from the ghettos of wealth.

In closing, to those who have closed the door on religion —
I was recently asked by a non-Christian friend if I thought he was
going to hell. I said, "I hope not. It will be hard to enjoy heaven
without you." If those of us who believe in God do not believe
God's grace is big enough to save the whole world... well, we
should at least pray that it is.

Your brother,
Shane

Read more:
http://www.esquire.com/features/best-and-brightest-2009/shane-claiborne-1209#ixzz0fbM2FbR2

Becoming A Woman of Excellence

A woman of excellence

is what i long to be

filled with your godly wisdom

so it is part of me

A woman of integrity

no matter what i face

standing up for righteousness

and for your saving grace

A woman of destiny

living out your plan

knowing where you'd have me walk

being guided by your hand

A woman of promise

standing on your word

holding on to all the truths

while carrying out your work

A woman of compassion

for the ones in the dark

those that do not know your love

and have darkness in their hearts

A woman that will never

compromise the faith

with what the world may offer

but will keep the narrow way

A woman who love Jesus

and will only follow Him

gladly to give up the world

so His light can shine within

Lord this is my earnest prayer

as a daughter by your grace

Grow in me these qualities

as i walk with you in faith

(C) By M.S. Lowndes

tttiiiiiittttt.....

i just don't feel like living my life at this moment...i just want to fall back and let Jesus carry me thorugh this season of my life....

arigato!

im not feeling well...i am not feeling well......grrrrrrrrrrrr..... i think im going to have fever...and im just too lazy too cook when i am sick...im all alone....im thinking what to eat tonight....still thinking....im not feeling well...

anyways, thank you Lord for everything...thank you for your grace..thank you for all the blessings throughout these week...thank you for your amzing love and grace...thank you so much...thank you for keeping my voice throughout our practice session though im sick... thank you for your joy that has become my strenght.... thank you for your guidance, thank you for never stop talking to me this whole week...thank you for your Son, Jesus. this whole week i was thinking about Him night and day and about the cross, your sacrifice, your unfailing love...thank you...thank you for giving me the passion to pray for the lost and perishing... thank you!

a bruised reed He will not break...

One chilly fall evening, I toured the once violence ridden
old maximum security Colorado State Penitentiary in
Canon city. It was like so many visits, walking the cell
blocks past darkened 5x9 cages, the men clutching the
bars staring at us with their dead eyes, a grate overhead
to catch the garbage hurled from the upper tiers.
We tried that evening to visit the solitary cell block where
the men were locked up 23 out of 24 hours. By an unusual
move we had been denied permission. The screams from
the cell blocks told us why.

That night I spoke to a packed chapel, the rear pews filled
with men with those same dead eyes. But I saw some of
them come alive as the spirit of God moved powerfully in
that jammed prison room. As the inmates were being marched
out two-by-two, one young lad – he looked about the age of
my oldest son – grabbed my arm. His eyes sparkled as he spoke,
he said, “I have no family and no friends.” Then His voice faltered
for a moment, “but thank you Mr.Colson, thank you. Six months
ago I wrote to you and you matched me up with a family in
Colorado Springs. Their name is Antonsen; they have been
writing and visiting me.” Tears began to roll down his cheeks,
yet he had the most radiant expression. “I just want you to know,
Mr.Colson, that for the first time in my life, I have
hope and a reason to live.”

Hope and a reason to live – that’s what
Prison Fellowship is all about.
The Good News of Jesus Christ must be preached to those locked
behind prison bars that they too might share the greatest gift
known to man – the gift of God’s Son.
You may be thinking that a sentence of more than seven years in
the Colorado State Penitentiary must mean a man committed a
serious crime. Probably true. So you say to yourself, “he’s getting
what he deserves. Why do we worry about convicts?”

Pause a moment to remember Jesus at the end of his ministry.
On the last day of his life, he was taken from his solitary cell on
death row, he was marched up that hill, spat upon, ridiculed,
mocked, beaten, the blood running down his temples from the
crown of thorns placed on his head. Then he was left to hang from
a cross at Golgotha, the place of the skull, to die. And he did so
as much for that young man in that Colorado prison as he did
for you and me.

Those of us who have committed our lives to
follow Christ are also committed to lay our
lives down for others, as he did for us.
We are commanded to do this. Every expert agrees that prisons
do not and cannot rehabilitate. That is why, according to some
statistics. four out of five crimes are committed by ex-convicts
Prisons merely recycle the criminals of society, often turning
them out even more violent and dangerous to society
than when they entered. We believe that the life-changing power
of Jesus Christ is the best hope inside the prisons.
We believe this by faith, and we know it by experience.
Instead of coming out of prison bitter and defiant to plague
society, those who have truly accepted Christ and become part
of a loving, caring Christian community return as law-abiding
citizens. This is the way to attack the crime problem at its root.
Thus, this ministry can have vital social benefits, but even more
importantly, Prison Fellowship is a vehicle through which
followers of Jesus Christ can heed his clear command to
go into the prisons ( see Matt 25)

It is important for you to know that our goal is not to build
a new para-church organization with an extensive paid staff.
Often such groups give the church an excuse not to get involved
by taking over its legitimate functions: often they bypass the
church. Our ministry on the contrary, is to be an exhorter,
an enabler, a facilitator; our goal is to encourage the
local church and the local Christian
community to become personally committed
and involved. ..


The task before us is tough. Make no mistake;
there are no panaceas. Bringing Christ into the prison is not
like waving a magic wand and then watching miracles happen.
It is a day in, day out, slugging away in the trenches.
There will be setbacks and disappointments. We deal with
people who had a lifetime of rejection; we cannot expect
instant results. Instead, we need to be patient and persevering,
showing care and love to those- like the young man in the
Colorado prison – who are among the most unloved in our
society. When they slip and fall, we need to pick them up.
Above all, we must remember that God measures our success
not in numbers won, but by the faithfulness of our
own hearts. If we are faithful, he will give the increase.

I believe that God is going to perform a mighty reforming
work in the prisons and institution… that he is raising up
people like you and me as part of his army, the hands
and feet that perform the labors...

Yours in His Service,
Chuck Colson

author's note:
I started joining Prison Fellowship ministry when I was 18 years old
(I’m the youngest). My passion to serve the inmates started when
I was 15years old. One day as I read through my bible, I came to
this following passage:

Matthew 25:

The Final Judgment
31 “But when the Son of Man comes in his glory, and all the angels
with him, then he will sit upon his glorious throne.
32 All the nations will be gathered in his presence,
and he will separate the people as a shepherd separates
the sheep from the goats.
33 He will place the sheep at his right hand and the goats at his left.
34 “Then the King will say to those on his right,
‘Come, you who are blessed by my Father, inherit the Kingdom
prepared for you from the creation of the world.
35 For I was hungry, and you fed me. I was thirsty, and you gave
me a drink. I was a stranger, and you invited me into your home.
36 I was naked, and you gave me clothing. I was sick, and you
cared for me. I was in prison, and you visited me.’
37 “Then these righteous ones will reply, ‘Lord, when did we
ever see you hungry and feed you? Or thirsty and give you
something to drink? ..
39 When did we ever see you sick or in p
rison and visit you?’
40 “And the King will say, ‘I tell you the truth,
when you did it to one of the least of these my
brothers and sisters, you were doing it to me!’
41 “Then the King will turn to those on the left and say,
‘Away with you, you cursed ones, into the eternal fire prepared
for the devil and his demons.
42 For I was hungry, and you didn’t feed me. I was thirsty,
and you didn’t give me a drink.
43 I was a stranger, and you didn’t invite me into your home.
I was naked, and you didn’t give me clothing.
I was sick and in prison, and you didn’t visit me.’
45 “And he will answer, ‘I tell you the truth, when you refused
to help the least of these my brothers and sisters,
you were refusing to help me.’
46 “And they will go away into eternal punishment,
but the righteous will go into eternal life.”

From that day onward there were a conviction and a passion
in my heart that I should go and serve the prisoner though
I do not have the access and to go in, I didn’t even know there
is such ministry like Prison Fellowship. I remember praying to
God for those who are in prison and for those who were arrested
for the gospel sake. 2years went by and I felt impossible that I
could serve the prisoners plus I do not have the qualification
to go in. One day there’s one brother in our church, he
approached me (which is my current boss) and ask me to work
for him in their new office little did I know that he is the Chairman
of Prison Fellowship in our state. The day I went to their new
office he informed me that I’m going to work with Prison Fellowship.
I was amazed how God answered my prayer.

It is a great privileged to serve God inside the prison.
Our Executive Director of PF always said this
“whenever we visited the prisoners we are not bringing Christ in,
we are visiting Christ and we are all just the same with the inmates,
a sinner, in fact we sinned in our daily lives, but the difference
is they got caught and we don’t”

It’s always a joy whenever it’s my turn to visit them and every
time we step out of the prison I always feel refreshed, revived.
I don’t know why, but just to fellowship and minister to those
inmates reminded me of who I am and what Christ has done
for mankind, his love and sacrifice. I can see some of the inmates
though they are locked up physically but I can see freedom in
their soul through their eyes, you can see a glimpse of joy
and peace written all over their face.

God’s love covers a multitude of sin. There’s one particular guy,
I was told by our chairman that he raped his cousin while she
was still 9years old, I was indignant at first when I heard but
the Lord taught me not to look at him through my physical eyes
instead look through the eyes of Christ. Every volunteer must
abound not just in good works but also in love. Same goes to me,
I am also unworthy but Christ look at me beyond my weaknesses
and sins. It takes Christ love for me to embrace them without judging,
to comfort instead of condemning and look into their eyes
and love them unreservedly.

Ephesians 3
17so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith.
And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love,
18may have power, together with all the saints, to grasp
how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ,
19and to know this love that surpasses knowledge—
that you may be filled to the measure of all the
fullness of God.

The Prison Fellowship team has put it this way.
The right reasons to join.
What are the right reasons for going into prison?
First of all a deep conviction that God is sending you there
for Christian service. You should go in obedience to Christ’s call…
The other right reason for joining this ministry is out of love for
inmates – people numbered among the world’s forgotten.
If you really love these people, you won’t use them for your selfish
ambition. Your purpose will be loving words and actions to point
them to Jesus Christ, who is the author and the perfector of authentic
love. Under the mandate of love, you also won’t get discourage
as easily when the going gets tough.

Like what Mr.Chuck Colson wrote, this is not an easy task,
sometimes the result would be very disappointing,
I remember one day there’s a lady called me up and question
me why do we need to serve the prisoners, she told me they
deserve it! So on and so fort... Many times we invited pastors,
elders, leaders, to come and join, fulfill and take heed what
Jesus said in Matt 25, though the respond was very discouraging
but the Lord was faithful all through the way.

On that glorious day,
When the Son of Man comes in his glory,
and all the angels with him,
then he will sit upon his glorious throne.
I want to hear him saying this to me
‘Come, you who are blessed by my Father,
inherit the Kingdom prepared for you
from the creation of the world.
For I was hungry, and you fed me.
I was thirsty, and you gave me a drink.
I was a stranger, and you invited me into your home.
I was naked, and you gave me clothing.
I was sick, and you cared for me.
I was in prison, and you visited me.’

take my life Lord but not my money...

I’ll give you anything Lord; take my life…but not my money…
Like what I’ve written on my previous blog even in my facebooking
I want God to be glorified, in EVERY DEPARTMENT of
my life I want God to reign not me. I want him to take fully control
over my life. That’s basically what I’ve been praying for.

Someone told me this “don’t talk about laying down your life
for God if you can’t and need to think twice before laying
down your money for God sake”
For me it was a funny statement but it has powerful truth in it.
Few years back I do have problem in handling my money though
I’ve given what I ought to give to God but in my part I’m just
miserable, years gone by I can see the Holy Spirit has taught me
so much and I can see progress and though I’m still struggling but
I thank God that it didn’t get any worst. I’ve been asking the Holy
Spirit to give me self-control not to spend carelessly but with wisdom.

My sisters called me shopaholic , something that I didn’t take pride
in instead I’m embarrassed. We all still do have our own struggles in
our daily lives even after we became Christian and I acknowledge that
this habit can become worse without God’s intervention.
We all notice that the world system is corrupt, everyday they
advertise and encourage you to spend more and more
“shop ‘till you drop” that’s what the world always says…

Recently I was reading the book called the power of prayer by
R.A Torrey, and the author touched on the subject of generosity…
here’s what he wrote,

Many professing Christian men, every year of their lives,
spend more on the unnecessary, not to say filthy and
unwholesome, tobacco habit than they do upon sending
the Gospel to the perishing in China, India, Africa, and
elsewhere. Yet they wonder why God does not answer
their prayers. Many men in our churches today,
if you ask them for 100$ for foreign missions, would
almost faint away, and yet they spend more than fifty
cents a day on cigars, and fifty cents a day would add
up to more than $100 in a year… and never dream of giving
the same a mount to foreign missions.
Yet they wonder why God does not answer
their prayers.

At a great world missionary meeting in Rochester some
years ago, an enthusiastic missionary advocate stretched out
her hands to the audience in a pathetic appeal and said,
“sisters, we must have money for foreign missions.”
Yet as she said it, more than $7000 worth of diamonds
flashed her fingers. Yet we wonder why God does not answers
our prayers. Oh, there is no wonder at all about it;
the explanation is simple. It is found in the word of God;
it is because of our stinginess, the smallness of our
giving. Doesn’t God say it in His word, and is He not
thundering it in our ears right now:

Proverbs 21:13
Whoso stoppeth his ears at the cry of the poor,
he also shall cry himself,
but shall not be heard.


After reading the book I open my bible and the Lord spoke to me
clearly thru His word. It really stirs my heart; I do not want to be
a listener only I want to be a doer, to do what pleases God’s heart.
Suddenly the Lord reminded me of my pledge. I remember
I promised one of God’s servants that I will pledge to help their
church building; I really do have the desire to help this specific
church. Months went by and I forgot about it until that night…
in the other hand I also do not have the amount that the Lord spoke in
my heart. So I pray, for few days I pray and pray and believe by faith,
put into practice what I’ve learned. I do not know where or how or
when the money will come but deep within my heart I heard a voice
saying the money will soon come. True to His word, few weeks later
someone gave me amount of money so I set it aside for the pastor,
though I admit I was tempted to use the money for my own pleasure
but I remember God’s word

1 John 3:16-19
We know what real love is because Jesus gave up his life
for us. So we also ought to give up our lives for our
brothers and sisters. If someone has enough
money to live well and sees a brother or
sister in need but shows no compassion—
how can God’s love be in that person?
Dear children, let’s not merely say that we love each other;
let us show the truth by our actions.
Our actions will show that we belong to the truth,
so we will be confident
when we stand before God.

Amazingly the day I sent the money over to them and even
after it I felt joy… I thought I would feel miserable. hahaha.. But it
turned out that I felt happy inside of me, knowing that I have
obeyed God’s word by faith with the help of His Holy Spirit.
I’m glad that the Lord gave me this opportunity to bless
others who are in need.

For me it’s not about the money actually, not about the amount,
it’s not about what I’m going to get in return; it’s about the
condition of my heart. How far am I willing to give it all for Christ?
I remember the story about a widow who came to the temple
and gave her offering while Jesus watched with his disciples,
though the Pharisees gave larger amount than the women
but surprisingly Jesus was pleased by the women’s offering.
Little that she had but she gave it all for the One who sees her heart.

Mark 12:41-43

How can we say we give our life for God when we are
holding back our money, our wealth, our family, loved ones,
our daily life and our future?

I know for sure that the pastor needed the money more
than me, whether the pastor will use it for their church building
or for mission, one thing for sure it will be for the expansion of
the kingdom of God and His glory.


Luke 6:38-39
Give, and you will receive.
Your gift will return to you in full—
pressed down, shaken together to make room for more,
running over, and poured into your lap.
The amount you give will determine
the amount you get back.”

This is not the end for me, this is just the beginning,
i want to abound in good works. Whenever the Lord speaks in
the future I want to be a blessing not just in words but also through
my action. Every time I give what is mine to others in need,
I felt that I have crucified my flesh and carnal desire and through
this process I can see God being glorified. Only when I crucified
myself will I taste true freedom and joy that I found in Christ Jesus.

o yeah!!!!

hahhaa..im reading John Bunyan Pilgrim's progress book.... i've read before in Amy Carmicheal's biography and she mentioned a lot about this author. it catches my attention and wanted to at least peek at his book which i believe is not available in this country...and it was written before WWII if im not mistaken....guess what my friend gave me links...and there i found this site..and John Bunyan Pilgrim's progress is available to read....thank you Lord:)

too lazy...

why is it that today i felt too lazy to do anything...im too lazy to finish my video making, im too lazy to be friendly, too lazy to smile, to lazy to be happy..hehehe...to lazy to finish up all my writing... i have like 3 diff topic that i have written and i dont know how to end it...because im too lazy to write in down....my mind think so much thought that i think i should write it down but im tooo lazy to cope up with my mind...so many things i wanted to write but im too lazy to really sit and write...aaarrrgggghhhh....haaaiiihhhh....dont worry sheila it's only a seasonal emotion...i hope so...hahahaha

grrrrr!!!

What is happening with the local churches?
Why are we still prophesying ‘vain things’ and dishing
out only favorable personal prophecies? We declare
‘Thus saith the Lord! Thus saith the Lord!”
we like to predict the future and claim we have a word
for every individual person. What’s the different between
us and the witch and diviners?
I am disgusted when I know that deception has a
foothold in our midst.I am disgusted and mad…
forgive me Lord but I am!

After my mum passed away the Lord spoke in my heart clearly
to be fervent in prayer and to intercede since I don’t really know
what to pray I just quote this “Lord, teach me how to pray” and
true enough, through His Holy spirit he taught me how to pray.
like what I’ve wrote in my blog before that I’ve received stuff from
God but I was hesitant, unsure of it’s meaning because it’s against
what I’ve seen in our midst, but I continue to pray that if what I
have felt and sense is true than somehow God will give me clear
confirmation.

Yesterday the Lord answered my prayer. She’s been struggling
whether to tell me or not, the Lord spoke to her last week through
His servant, to go and do what the Lord has put in her heart.
We met and she shared the things she kept in her heart over the
years.

I was so shocked! I couldn’t believe that what I have felt and sense
before is actually true plus the Lord confirmed the word He gave
to me 5years ago. It’s a very sensitive issue and I don’t want to
write in detail. I just want to pour it out.

Now I understand why my spirit grieved when I sat with them,
now I understand when I read Ezekiel 16 you brought them into
my mind. Truly Lord your ways are beyond mine, your thoughts
are beyond mine, many times I cannot understand but you
are faithful.

I couldn’t sleep the whole night even after I woke up I kept
thinking that their souls is at stake, there is darkness in the House
of God. I wept and I don’t know what to pray, how to pray but
I will not remain silent, I will not! I won’t let this deception
continue to creep among your people Lord and cause division.


Jeremiah 4:19
19 Oh, my anguish, my anguish!
I writhe in pain.
Oh, the agony of my heart!
My heart pounds within me,
I cannot keep silent.
For I have heard the sound of the trumpet;
I have heard the battle cry.

Why in God’s name we want to steal His glory?
Why do we declare “thus saith the Lord” when everything
that came out from our mouth is merely from our flesh?!
Why are we not willing to repent?
Why are we so stubborn in our sin?

!!!

Jeremiah 29
4Thus saith the LORD of hosts, the God of Israel,
unto all that are carried away captives,
whom I have caused to be carried away from
Jerusalem unto Babylon;

5Build ye houses, and dwell in them;
and plant gardens, and eat the fruit of them;

6Take ye wives, and beget sons and daughters;
and take wives for your sons, and give your
daughters to husbands, that they may bear sons
and daughters; that ye may be increased there,
and not diminished.

7And seek the peace of the city whither I have
caused you to be carried away captives,
and pray unto the LORD for it:
for in the peace thereof shall ye have peace.

8For thus saith the LORD of hosts, the God of Israel;
Let not your prophets and your diviners, that be
in the midst of you, deceive you, neither hearken to
your dreams which ye cause to be dreamed.

9For they prophesy falsely unto you in my name:
I have not sent them, saith the LORD.

10For thus saith the LORD, that after seventy years
be accomplished at Babylon I will visit you, and perform
my good word toward you, in causing you to return
to this place.

11For I know the thoughts that I think toward you,
saith the LORD, thoughts of peace, and not of evil,
to give you an expected end.

12Then shall ye call upon me, and ye shall go and
pray unto me, and I will hearken unto you.

13And ye shall seek me, and find me,
when ye shall search for me with all your heart.

14And I will be found of you, saith the LORD:
and I will turn away your captivity, and I will gather
you from all the nations, and from all the places whither
I have driven you, saith the LORD; and I will bring you
again into the place whence I caused you to be
carried away captive.

it's been 5years, i remember vividly that night when
the Lord gave me this word.
After 4 years praying, asking, seeking, waiting upon God the
Lord answered one of my prayer specifically today.

verse 8-9 really bothered me over the years,
I’ve been telling God that it’s impossible that there
will be any deceiver or prophets that are not of God
in our midst. over the years i've been praying though
i cannot really comprehend, but there's urgency to pray.

I don’t feel like writing in details but I just want to
encourage my soul that MY GOD REIGNS! He is…
He is in control over this situation...
He's in charge over this matter...

This verse describe the condition of my soul

Jeremiah 4
19 Oh, my anguish, my anguish!
I writhe in pain.
Oh, the agony of my heart!
My heart pounds within me,
I cannot keep silent.
For I have heard the sound of the trumpet;
I have heard the battle cry.

I am seriously mad! Mad with this situation, mad to those who let themselves get easily influenced, mad at those who blasphemed the Name of GOD, mad at those who use the Name of God in vain without any fear or trembling! Mad at those who use the Name of GOD for their personal gain and for self-exaltation! Mad at those who deceived your people, the weak and ignorant! Lord you need to do something! You need to! I will not keep silent! I will not!

How can they stand before your people and declare "thus saith the Lord" when everything that they have said is from their flesh?! these phrase have been widely used "thus saith the Lord" not to edifies the church, to comfort or to encourage but instead using it for their personal gain.They blasphemed Your Name! aren't they aware about the consequences of it? don't they remember that God is GOD?!How can this be? Lord, have mercy upon this temple, hear my cry, have mercy upon their souls. Hear our prayer and when you hear, forgive. intervene LOrd! we are helpless, Holy Spirit we need you!


4 Circumcise yourselves to the LORD,
circumcise your hearts,
you men of Judah and people of Jerusalem,
or my wrath will break out and burn like fire
because of the evil you have done—
burn with no one to quench it.

it really hurts...

an old lady wrote that when you cry, dont cry alone.
cry with others it can heal.. it's really heartbreaking when i
see her now embracing other faith. we all do have free will,
i know that...i dont know what to write here.. all the why's
is running thru my head now...is this all their fault?
life is unfair, maybe human just like to be stupid.
we all know there is a GOD, she heard the truth before.
and yet she turned her back from GOD...what makes her
to take this decision? hurts? past experience?guilt?
i remember as pastor sam prayed this prayer
"Lord, we are helpless...many times we see
them turn their back on you...we are helpless.."
as he offer this prayer he cried.... so do i.
i understand, he felt the heart of GOD, the heart beat
of GOD is souls, He desire that no man should perish...

carry my cross

I want to quote Leonard Ravenhill’s prayer, a beautiful prayer

“We pray Lord for Your glory not for ours,
not for the preachers, not even for the last
day’s ministries but we pray for your holy
Name sake that you will invade this sanctuary tonight.
We pray you’ll work spiritual revolution in us,
we pray that some of us will go to our own funeral
tonight and die to self and all the failure
and all the weakness”

Last friday when attending our prayer meeting, while praying,
when all the petition and all the request were made known
before our God, when we sang the song “change my heart
O God” I sat there on my chair and cried for this generation,
for my people, for this city, this nation, like Leonard Ravenhill
said, this generation never seen your glory.


Second thing. As I sat there and just examining my heart,
this question appeared in my heart, how many are willing
to follow Christ to the point of death? I looked around and
I don’t know, that very night I asked God to re-examine my
own heart, I wept, I pray that I will be found worthy to die for Him.


In this generation standing for what it right, declaring truth
is like an offense (really weird) especially when we speak out
the gospel in restricted nations it will cost you your very life
and because of it many believers shun the gospel from other
unbelievers, I’ve shared to others about Christ and I can tell
you it’s pretty hard especially when they really hold on to their
beliefs.


I met one pastor and he’s new to this place, he shared to me
that his fellow believers warned him not to share the gospel
with strangers and people from this specific religion because
it will cost him his life, I can see from his face that he’s puzzled
and disappointed.I understood what he felt (because before I
also have the same mindset like his fellow believers). I told
Him that it’s true, sharing the Gospel will cost him his life
but I told him where I stand, i do not agree with the 'advice'
of his 'friends', i remember telling him if we do not speak out
the unbelievers will never know the truth because only
the truth can set them free..the truth about Christ, the
message of the cross.

Apostle Paul wrote this

Philippians 1:27-30
27Whatever happens, conduct yourselves in a manner
worthy of the gospel of Christ. Then, whether I come
and see you or only hear about you in my absence,
I will know that you stand firm in one spirit,
contending as one man for the faith of the gospel
28without being frightened in any way by those who
oppose you. This is a sign to them that they will be destroyed,
but that you will be saved—and that by God.
29For it has been granted to you on behalf of Christ
not only to believe on him, but also to suffer for him…


I told him if I were in His position I will ignore those voices,
(I’m not saying be rebellious, that’s not what I meant)
it’s because they don't want to live antithesis life,
their words are totally different with the Word of God,
if I have the conviction to share to other unbelievers
I will do, though maybe there are times where I have
to argue first with God..hahhaha..but then I’ll try my best.

Luke 21:5-13
Jesus Foretells the Future
…But Jesus said, 6 “The time is coming when all these
things will be completely demolished. Not one stone will
be left on top of another….

On verse 8-11 Jesus told them thing that will happen before
the end comes and the next verse Jesus clearly stated this…

12 “But before all this occurs, there will be a time of great persecution.
You will be dragged into synagogues and prisons,
and you will stand trial before kings and governors
because you are my followers.
13 But this will be your opportunity to tell them about me

O God remove our ignorance… ignorance towards Your word.

Even in this current situation Christians began
to tremble, break down and begin to seek God.
Last Sunday the speaker shared that the church has
become too complacent that’s why persecution sets in,
Christians hold 2 to 3 jobs to earn more money,
working day in day out and only set their feet to
church on Sundays. He said that this very situation is
a good reminder for all us that the church is not our refuge,
the church building is not our shelter but GOD is.

Psalm 9:9
The LORD is a shelter for the oppressed,
a refuge in times of trouble.

Psalm 31:19-20
How great is the goodness you have stored
up for those who fear you.
You lavish it on those who come to you for protection,
blessing them before the watching world.
You hide them in the shelter of your presence,
safe from those who conspire against them.
You shelter them in your presence,
far from accusing tongues.

I admit that I’m also was taken aback when
I first heard all this current situation but the
Lord reminded me this morning and gave
this verse into remembrance

Psalm 2:2-5
The kings of the earth prepare for battle;
the rulers plot together against the LORD
and against his anointed one.
3 “Let us break their chains,” they cry,
“and free ourselves from slavery to God.”
4 But the one who rules in heaven laughs.
The Lord scoffs at them.
5 Then in anger he rebukes them,
terrifying them with his fierce fury.


That night when we had our prayer meeting,
we all earnestly seek God and crying out to Him
for help and comfort. This word came to us


Isaiah 52
Deliverance for Jerusalem

1 Wake up, wake up, O Zion! Clothe yourself with strength.
Put on your beautiful clothes, O holy city of Jerusalem,
for unclean and godless people will enter your gates no longer.
2 Rise from the dust, O Jerusalem. Sit in a place of honor.
Remove the chains of slavery from your neck,
O captive daughter of Zion.

My name is blasphemed all day long.

6 But I will reveal my name to my people,
and they will come to know its power.
Then at last they will recognize that
I am the one who speaks to them.”
7 How beautiful on the mountains are the feet of the
messenger who brings good news, the good news
of peace and salvation, the news that the
God of Israel reigns!
8 The watchmen shout and sing with joy, for before
their very eyes they see the LORD returning to Jerusalem.
9 Let the ruins of Jerusalem break into joyful song,
for the LORD has comforted his people.
He has redeemed Jerusalem.
10 The LORD has demonstrated his holy power
before the eyes of all the nations. All the ends of the earth
will see the victory of our God.
11 Get out! Get out and leave your captivity,
where everything you touch is unclean.
Get out of there and purify yourselves,
you who carry home the sacred objects of the LORD.
12 You will not leave in a hurry, running for your lives.
For the LORD will go ahead of you; yes,
the God of Israel will protect you from behind


My God reigns!! :)