pray

(my heart is troubled lately about something which i do not want to explain more details coz im too lazy to type it all...so ill just spill everything out, everything that's in my mind)
see in the natural, act in the Spiritual!
it talks about prayer, since we christian, we are not fighting against flesh and blood but against the unclean spirit, the evil one and it is not through our flesh and human flesh but through prayer. i have come to a situation where i hate the most but i know i need to go through this stage, whatever it is as long as in the end God gets the glory! it's not a situation where man fighting against me, but christian brother against christian brother, believer against believer...i mean come on, do we really need to argue with each other opinion? who's right, who's wrong? is that the most important thing right now? we are so quick to point finger rather than to humble ourself...we're living in the last days, and the gospel must be preached! do we really need to fight for our rights? if it's for the gospel sake i'll cheer for you but it's merely our flesh opinion that tries to break others and destroy others, the funny part of being a human is we thought we knew everything, ok that is too general, let's just say being a Christian...we thought when we went through some trials and pain and suffering, we thought we knew what it meant to be Christian, we thought we really know EVERYTHING! and other's ought to listen to us...gosh, we are so ignorant and proud with our wickedness andwith our so called "spiritual ideas"and i dont know what's going on inside their mind backstabbing against each other.the more i live in this wicked and evil time the more i realized that there are two diff kind of christians. first, those who called themselves BELIEVERS which makes them just the same with the devil because the devil also believe that exsistent of God. Second, Disciple, this kind of people is very rare to find nowadays, i myself, many times struggle to be Christ's disciple coz it's not easy but i rather loss everything to become His disciple rather than just to believe without obeying Christ..i was dissapointed to be honest when i knew this thing, but as i've said earlier im not fighting against any man, im not fighting against flesh and blood but against the spirit that causes this division, chaos and confusion and i am mad! seriously mad with this deceiving spirit...and it is also vital for me to keep myself holy, and Lord please give me discernment. i do not want to be move by man's word but i only want to obey the Word of God...i felt helpless but GOd you can change and turned the worst situation and the worst sinner like me for Your glory. i felt disgusted when man come to me and condemn and judge others, servant of God and exalt himself for what he has done for Christ, comparing his 'successes' and service in Christ with others, i think that's the most carnal and evil thing and without realizing we are stealing the glory for ourself...o God forgive us!...

Lord i pray that you will open our eyes,
open our mind, you resist those who are proud
and love those who are humble. God you know
our heart, you know every person's heart, i dont want
to judge but i ask for justice, rebuke us gently,
God confront our heart! strip off every deceitful
tongue and words..i know you're doing something in our
midst, i know you are breaking things that can be broken,
you are shaking things that can be shaken...
that through this situation i will also be
able to learn and draw myself closer to You
i pray those whose eyes are being closed by the
lies of the enemies, GOd answer me not because
i deserve it, not because we earn it but for Your
Holy Name sake, let your name be glorify!
Amen