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Thursday, February 25, 2010

something from my heart

"the clock is ticking

and the time is fleeing

death and hell are moving

Christ will return" PW




Christ indeed will return, whether you like it or not.im wondering this past few days, i was tired physically and emotionally, im tired of living in this evil and wicked generation and i started to wonder how it would be on that day when Christ shall descend from heaven, to be with Him where all weariness and pain shall cease, that day when Christ and i will be united and together with all believers. like Paul washer said it would be either Wonderful and absolutely terrying, it depends on which side you are in, are you for Christ or against Him?...how would i feel when i saw Him face to face? when he come riding on the clouds, shining like the sun, how would my heart feel? even just to think that very day lightens up my day and make me smile because it would be a glorious day ever in history for those who put their trust in Him. it would be a glorious day when i shall see Him descend from heaven to take His people. everything will be worth sacrifing, worth dying for when i shall see the Son of Man comes and take me home, all the pain, suffering i've went hrough in life, all the hellish moment i've been through, all of these will worth nothing when i shall see the Lamb who was slain for my sake come as a King and a Judge...Lord i cant wait for you to take me home:)






Wednesday, February 24, 2010

lalala....

the visitor counter hit 777 today

at 10.56am

25th Feb 2010...


what a perfect number for me :)

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

my prayer...


Monday, February 22, 2010

prodigal son....

God work in mysterious ways, i saw last week my friend came to church, a friend that i've been praying for this past few years. and im still praying for others who have gone astray that will turn to God again and run back to their first love, Jesus.

i will waste my life....

the song below is my prayer at this point of my life
we forgot many times that the road to Christ is narrow,
Lord many times we are caught up by the
unnecessary things in life,
all the petty petty things that have blinded
our eyes to see the Cross, to see greater things.
God make me your prisoner, only when i became your captive
there i will taste TRUE FREEDOM...
this i ask in Jesus name
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
i will waste my life,
ill be tested and tried
with no regrets inside of me
just to find im at Your feet

i'll leave my father's house
and i'll leave my mother
ill leave all i have known
and i'll have no other

i am in love with You
there is no cost,
i am in love with You
there is no loss
i am in love with You
i want to take Your name
i am in love with You
i want to cling to You, Jesus
just let me cling to You,Jesus

i'll say goodbye to my father, my mother
ill turn my back on every other lover and
i'll press on, yes i'll press on

misty edwards (c)

me jumping...love this pics:)


Saturday, February 20, 2010

countdown....

25 days left before the church opening...and we all are nervous and i personally am scared.seriosuly i told GOd the last thing i want to do is to stand before thousands of people and lead them in worship..im not saying that im lazy or i do not want to serve GOd, no...it's just i do not want to put myself in front, i'd rather be in my clostet room and just pray...and pray and pray..and just fellowship with him, interceed, travail in my prayer and just sit at the feet of Jesus...it's truly a beautiful moment...it's kinda addicting also...

tom inglis supposed to lead the worship for this coming event but he's gonna be in south africa in march if im not mistaken so we have to take his place...so yeah...God works in mysterious ways...many times you felt that you're not ready but GOd saw the opposite, sometimes we thought we are ready but God knows we are not...so yeah...ill just faitfully serve Him...to lead His peole into worship, lead his people right into the mercy seat...

so what should i do with this 25days?...what should i do within this 25days?... i should consecrate my life...so yeah..im going restrain myself from few stuff...fasting, not just in food but also internet thingy...just want to exclude my self, exclude my mind from all these..and i want my mind to be filled with the word of GOD, with everything that is pure and lovely...

phillipians 4: 8
finally brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are godd report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, THINK of these things.

worship is more than singing songs, more than clapping our hands, more than creating melodies, it's more than the music and cool gadget...though it's also our expressions of love towards him..but worship is our lifestyle, how we conduct ourself, how we obey him, how we keep ourself holy for His namesake...worship is beyond the four corner walls of the church...it's about the condition of my heart and also to help those who are poor, to release those who are in bondage. to set the captives free, to defend the right of the orphans and the widows..to love the unloved and reach those who are perishing...it's about how intimate you are in your relationship with Christ, and when we stand on the pulpit the spirit will manifest itself trhough your life as you lead them they will feel the presence of God because everyday you keep the anointing and his presence became real in you and it'll overflow as you open your mouth and heart as you ascend with your songs to the throne of grace....

25days left...Lord please take this moment to examine my heart, my thougts, my motives...deal with me, keep my heart in the right direction..heal anything that has been torn down, heal and build again this altar of yours....


Friday, February 19, 2010

guess what?!


i was praying and waiting upon God this whole month for our upcoming church dedication and yes, the Lord did spoke to me thru his words in genesis. but i desire more, for a new revelation, new word from him...Manna...fresh word from the Lord... a word that will quicken my spirit and soul..a word that will bring me into another different level, word that will change my perspective, a word that will draw me closer into the reality of Christ.


and yesterday while i was reading the articles i came to this message where leonard ravenhill shared, as i read it halfway i left my table and work and went to the toilet because i just felt i want to worship Him and need to have a quiet moment, then this verse came and it quicken me, there is this "majestic feeling", the 'awe' was there (goosebumps) i knew right at that moment that this is the word, this is it!


philippians 3:10


that i may KNOW Him,

and the power of His RESSURECTION,

and the FELLOWSHIP of His sufferings,

being made conformable unto His death


though Leonard Ravenhill did an amazing work in preaching this verse out, but im not content... sound selfish...but i dont care, i want GOd to reveal the meaning of this verse from diferent angle , i dont want second hand blessing, i want a fresh revelation from Him and i know my God can do it and im going to seek, knock and ask until i grasp it, until this WORD OF LIFE change my inner man, transform me from glory to glory and from strenght to strength...


i cannot explain the words in my heart, but there's something that i believe the Lord wants to reveal through this word, so God unveil the truth, let me be transform by Your Word....


countdown....

26days before the official dedication,
grand opening of our church...
and i am freakin scared...going to lead the worship in session...
we only have 3more weeks to practice and gosh!..
LORD divine intervention...and we havent fixed our intro
and all the stuff...the vocal, the harmony, the musician
and other stuff....i, personally am fully depending on GOD...
Lord go ahead of me if not i have no desire to stand before
thousands of them...if You will not be there then remove me
also from the stage...i have no desire to stand before men
if you're not with me...if your presence doesnt go with us
i will not move an inch....GOD!!!!!!

Thursday, February 18, 2010

yeay!

today in history...
18th feb 2010
2.10pm
it has reached 700 viewers...
thanks to all who viewed my insignificant blog...
hehehhehe....

WELCOME!!! welcome baby gwen...welcome to our family!!

hhahahha..suman!

baby gwen..you're getting bigger and "chubbier"


ATTENTION UNTHEIA

ok this is the introduction...hehhehehe....


view from upper seat...

left view...

right view...

main stage


taaa daaaa!!!this is the chair....
upper view and the PA room (left)
behind the stage and the changing room
this is the changing room....

another door for the changing room this one connects you to the backyard and toilet


joanne!!!...hehehehe
hanging out in church:)

miss my best friend joanne...she came and sleep over in church:)


"acting cool"...hahaha..it didnt turned out as what we want...haahhaaa

rain rain go away, come again another day....

the cloud is getting darker, it's going to rain soon... hhmmmm..down memory lane, i remember those days where we used to go out and play, dance in the rain even when we were a teenager we used to do that...but yeah, now things have changed, the enviroment have changed we have grown up...hehhehe..but one thing remain we still do love to dance in the rain..we planned last year with my cousin...but unfortunately there were no rain...hehehhe...next time i guess...there will always be a next time:)

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

mi familia...

this is our eldest sister...LANNEL


the second one... VANESSA
She's the youngest....ANTHEA...







i miss them bunches!!!.....hugs!

lawaks!

i stumble upon this video "top 10 things girls do turn me off" by pastor Justin... i never heard of him but his video was hillarious..i mean seriously, girls should watch it...Christian girls..highly recommended by me...it was funny but at the same time he have his point, and personally im really blessed by what he shared...

be blessed!:)
you can just click his page on my videos down there....*scroll down*

Monday, February 15, 2010

forgive us...

To all my nonbelieving, sort-of-believing,
and used-to-be-believing friends:
I feel like I should begin with a confession.

I am sorry that so often the biggest obstacle to
God has been Christians. Christians who have had
so much to say with our mouths and so little to
show with our lives. I am sorry that so often we
have forgotten the Christ of our Christianity.

Forgive us. Forgive us for the embarrassing
things we have done in the name of God.
The other night I headed into downtown Philly
for a stroll with some friends from out of town.
We walked down to Penn's Landing along the river,
where there are street performers, artists, musicians.
We passed a great magician who did some pretty sweet
tricks like pour change out of his iPhone, and then
there was a preacher. He wasn't quite as captivating
as the magician. He stood on a box, yelling into a
microphone, and beside him was a coffin with a fake
dead body inside. He talked about how we are all going
to die and go to hell if we don't know Jesus.
Some folks snickered. Some told him to shut the hell up.
A couple of teenagers tried to steal the dead body in the
coffin. All I could do was think to myself, I want to jump
up on a box beside him and yell at the top of my lungs,
"God is not a monster." Maybe next time I will.

The more I have read the Bible and studied the life of Jesus,
the more I have become convinced that Christianity spreads
best not through force but through fascination.
But over the past few decades our Christianity,
at least here in the United States, has become less
and less fascinating. We have given the atheists less
and less to disbelieve. And the sort of Christianity many
of us have seen on TV and heard on the radio looks less
and less like Jesus.

At one point Gandhi was asked if he was a Christian,
and he said, essentially, "I sure love Jesus, but the Christians
seem so unlike their Christ." A recent study showed that the
top three perceptions of Christians in the U. S. among
young non-Christians are that Christians are
1) antigay,
2) judgmental, and
3) hypocritical.

So what we have here is a bit of an image crisis,
and much of that reputation is well deserved.
That's the ugly stuff. And that's why I begin
by saying that I'm sorry.

Now for the good news.
I want to invite you to consider that maybe the
televangelists and street preachers are wrong —
and that God really is love. Maybe the fruits of
the Spirit really are beautiful things like peace,
patience, kindness, joy, love, goodness, and not the
ugly things that have come to characterize religion,
or politics, for that matter. (If there is anything I have
learned from liberals and conservatives, it's that you
can have great answers and still be mean...
and that just as important as being right is being nice.)

The Bible that I read says that God did not send Jesus
to condemn the world but to save it... it was because
"God so loved the world." That is the God I know,
and I long for others to know. I did not choose to devote
my life to Jesus because I was scared to death of hell or
because I wanted crowns in heaven... but because he is good.
For those of you who are on a sincere spiritual journey,
I hope that you do not reject Christ because of Christians.
We have always been a messed-up bunch, and somehow
God has survived the embarrassing things we do in His name.
At the core of our "Gospel" is the message that Jesus came
"not [for] the healthy... but the sick." And if you choose Jesus,
may it not be simply because of a fear of hell or hope for
mansions in heaven.

Don't get me wrong, I still believe in the afterlife,
but too often all the church has done is promise the world
that there is life after death and use it as a ticket to ignore
the hells around us. I am convinced that the Christian Gospel
has as much to do with this life as the next, and that the message
of that Gospel is not just about going up when we die but about
bringing God's Kingdom down. It was Jesus who taught us to pray
that God's will be done "on earth as it is in heaven." On earth.

One of Jesus' most scandalous stories is the story of the Good
Samaritan. As sentimental as we may have made it, the original
story was about a man who gets beat up and left on the side of
the road. A priest passes by. A Levite, the quintessential religious
guy, also passes by on the other side (perhaps late for a meeting
at church). And then comes the Samaritan... you can almost
imagine a snicker in the Jewish crowd. Jews did not talk to
Samaritans, or even walk through Samaria. But the Samaritan
stops and takes care of the guy in the ditch and is lifted up as
the hero of the story. I'm sure some of the listeners were ticked.
According to the religious elite, Samaritans did not keep the
right rules, and they did not have sound doctrine...
but Jesus shows that true faith has to work itself out in a
way that is Good News to the most bruised and broken
person lying in the ditch.

It is so simple, but the pious forget this lesson constantly.
God may indeed be evident in a priest, but God is just as
likely to be at work through a Samaritan or a prostitute.
In fact the Scripture is brimful of God using folks like a lying
prostitute named Rahab, an adulterous king named David...
at one point God even speaks to a guy named Balaam
through his donkey. Some say God spoke to Balaam through
his ass and has been speaking through asses ever since.
So if God should choose to use us, then we should be grateful
but not think too highly of ourselves. And if upon meeting
someone we think God could never use, we should think again.
After all, Jesus says to the religious elite who looked down on
everybody else: "The tax collectors and prostitutes are
entering the Kingdom ahead of you." And we wonder what
got him killed?

I have a friend in the UK who talks about "dirty theology" —
that we have a God who is always using dirt to bring life and
healing and redemption, a God who shows up in the most
unlikely and scandalous ways. After all, the whole story begins
with God reaching down from heaven, picking up some dirt,
and breathing life into it. At one point, Jesus takes some mud,
spits in it, and wipes it on a blind man's eyes to heal him.
(The priests and producers of anointing oil were not happy
that day.)

In fact, the entire story of Jesus is about a God who did not just
want to stay "out there" but who moves into the neighborhood,
a neighborhood where folks said, "Nothing good could come."
It is this Jesus who was accused of being a glutton and drunkard
and rabble-rouser for hanging out with all of society's rejects,
and who died on the imperial cross of Rome reserved for bandits
and failed messiahs. This is why the triumph over the cross was
a triumph over everything ugly we do to ourselves and to others.
It is the final promise that love wins.

It is this Jesus who was born in a stank manger in the middle of a
genocide. That is the God that we are just as likely to find in the
streets as in the sanctuary, who can redeem revolutionaries
and tax collectors, the oppressed and the oppressors... a God who
is saving some of us from the ghettos of poverty, and some of us
from the ghettos of wealth.

In closing, to those who have closed the door on religion —
I was recently asked by a non-Christian friend if I thought he was
going to hell. I said, "I hope not. It will be hard to enjoy heaven
without you." If those of us who believe in God do not believe
God's grace is big enough to save the whole world... well, we
should at least pray that it is.

Your brother,
Shane

Read more:
http://www.esquire.com/features/best-and-brightest-2009/shane-claiborne-1209#ixzz0fbM2FbR2

Thursday, February 11, 2010

Becoming A Woman of Excellence

A woman of excellence
is what i long to be
filled with your godly wisdom
so it is part of me
A woman of integrity
no matter what i face
standing up for righteousness
and for your saving grace
A woman of destiny
living out your plan
knowing where you'd have me walk
being guided by your hand
A woman of promise
standing on your word
holding on to all the truths
while carrying out your work
A woman of compassion
for the ones in the dark
those that do not know your love
and have darkness in their hearts
A woman that will never
compromise the faith
with what the world may offer
but will keep the narrow way
A woman who love Jesus
and will only follow Him
gladly to give up the world
so His light can shine within
Lord this is my earnest prayer
as a daughter by your grace
Grow in me these qualities
as i walk with you in faith
(C) By M.S. Lowndes

Sunday, February 7, 2010

tttiiiiiittttt.....

i just don't feel like living my life at this moment...i just want to fall back and let Jesus carry me thorugh this season of my life....

Thursday, February 4, 2010

arigato!

im not feeling well...i am not feeling well......grrrrrrrrrrrr..... i think im going to have fever...and im just too lazy too cook when i am sick...im all alone....im thinking what to eat tonight....still thinking....im not feeling well...

anyways, thank you Lord for everything...thank you for your grace..thank you for all the blessings throughout these week...thank you for your amzing love and grace...thank you so much...thank you for keeping my voice throughout our practice session though im sick... thank you for your joy that has become my strenght.... thank you for your guidance, thank you for never stop talking to me this whole week...thank you for your Son, Jesus. this whole week i was thinking about Him night and day and about the cross, your sacrifice, your unfailing love...thank you...thank you for giving me the passion to pray for the lost and perishing... thank you!