Christmas season..

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why do i hate Christmas?...actually it's not christmas to be exact. i mean end of the year...why do christmas fall on the end of the year? who's the person in charge of putting christmas at the end of the year?..i have no idea and im too lazy to google it up.. im tired..i want to sleeeeeeeppppp.i slept at 1 last night, came late from carroling... i love and amazed by the true meaning of Christmas. God gave His Son, He love us deeply but gosh!! all the activities and program overlook the true meaning of it... there are so many sounds and music, so many shopping list and food (yum..yumm :p )...i think food would be ok on this festive season..hahhaa...anyways, my point is. we concentrate so much on decorations and gifts, putting much effort on the outer look, spending money on unneccesary stuff...but how about our inner self? does our heart feel peace on this christmas season?do our soul felt true joy? when i was small i describe christmas as loud, music and dance, well nothing wrong with that...and beside it's my family tradition to dance in every occasion...ok im not saying the kind of dance that you can find in pub, club ect. we dance waltz, cha-cha and others (i know it's lame..hehehe). we have this hispanic blood running thru our vein so yeah. i think my family are pretty weird for asian people since most asian countries are not so expressive, reserve, very shy (except for phillipines) we dance we sing and we laughed till the dawn comes. some people cannot except it but many enjoyed it...ok were was i?...blah..blahh.. blahh... hhmmmmm...o yeah, so..i thought the more the merrier, the merrier the more it'll sound like Christmas...but as i grow up physically and spiritually i've learned that even in quietness i can also celebrate and feel genuine peace and perfect joy. my mum used to tell me before. when we get older you'll be more 'quiet', as you matured in age you'll find serenity more attractive. yeah, i agree... ill get this back as soon as possible. i think all i need today is my pillow, my thick blanket and my bed...i need to sleep!!!!...