half day!!!

we will work half day today...yippiee!!! thank you Lord:)

i told God last night, please make a miracle today. make it ha alf day working. actually my boss told us yesterday but i didnt heard it not until this morning while preparing my breakfast my workmate told me today we'll work only half day...hehehee... i wanted to go home early because i wanted to prepare myself, they just informed me yesterday and requested me to lead the worship tomorrow for our combine worship and prayer session from 9am-11 at our new church building.. i was hesitant at first because im really tired this past few weeks, i didnt get enough sleep (i think so)..hehehe... but then i remember that i have devote myself FIRST for God and his service. i remember what i have vowed to him so ya, with a joyful heart i said yes and though it's a last minute thing. please pray for me...thanks:)

covenant sanctuary part 2...

as being requested by my biut-tiful and 'healthy' sisterssss (yesterday she told me they went to jog..haha!)..anyways,here's the pix

taken during our practice session, right after all the church members 'gotong royong' to clean up the church...

ok dont get me wrong..this is not stairway to heaven..this is stairway to our P.A room..up there.. see that window?..there's a room up there specially for the person who controls the sound etc.

ok down here: that's the main entrance down there...see?..

for the mean time, waiting for the new chair to come. we're using our old chair..it still look great and in good condition :)...

that's me and the rest of the musician...

new year....

one more day to go...HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!! :)... time flew so fast...my cousin kept telling me she cant believe we're entering 2010.hehehe...im preparing myself much in prayer and examining my heart, i wanted to move on like million people out there but i want it to be real,not just profess it, not just on my lips but really move on and let go things that i've been carrying and struggling for these past few months.i ain't carrying it..no more... i know the only person that can help me to 'make everything new' is God thru his Holy Spirit. regrets, i believe we all do have regrets we kept and without realizing it we hid it behind our heart. i do have one... two actually...hehheee...more than that... first about my mum. second, when i met him. if i could turn back the time, i wish i could make things right and say the words that i wanted to say. IF... IF... IF.. i didnt realize im carrying it, not until the Holy Spirit revealed while i was praying. God is good...he is good..

new year, new year..new year resolution?...most people will have this one long list of what they want to do or achieved for the coming new year, and by the month of june they will achive none and most people will forget what they have wrote and miss place their paper. one of them is me..yes...me...hehehhee...

so i've changed my 'new year resolution' since last year...instead of writing down what I WANT to do and accomplish for the next year, i choose to follow what God has told me earlier through his word. what i am called to do...

Jeremiah 29:
4 This is what the Lord of Heaven’s Armies,
the God of Israel, says to all the captives
he has exiled to Babylon from Jerusalem:
5 “Build homes, and plan to stay.
Plant gardens, and eat the food they produce.
6 Marry and have children.
Then find spouses for them so
that you may have many grandchildren.
Multiply! Do not dwindle away!
7 And work for the peace and prosperity
of the city where I sent you into exile.
Pray to the Lord for it,
for its welfare will determine your welfare.”
8 This is what the Lord of Heaven’s Armies,
the God of Israel, says:
“Do not let your prophets and
fortune-tellers who are with you in the land
of Babylon trick you. Do not listen to their dreams,
9 because they are telling you lies in my name.
I have not sent them,” says the Lord.
10 This is what the Lord says:
“You will be in Babylon for seventy years.
But then I will come and do for you all the
good things I have promised,
and I will bring you home again.
11 For I know the plans I have for you,”
says the Lord. “They are plans for good
and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.
12 In those days when you pray, I will listen.
13 If you look for me wholeheartedly, you will find me.
14 I will be found by you,” says the Lord.
“I will end your captivity and restore your fortunes.
I will gather you out of the nations where I sent you
and will bring you home again to your own land.”


at first (it was 5years ago) i received this word fresh from the Lord, i was puzzled and confused, though some of the word do make sense (1 or 2 verses only) the rest is just 'out' for me...hehhehe.. but as time goes by i slowly get it...as i grow older and my surrounding have abruptly changed. these verses do make sense.

as for this next verse, it really has a profound meaning for me personally, even the whole chapter of 2 timothy 4.

2 timothy 4
5 But you should keep a clear mind in every situation.
Don’t be afraid of suffering for the Lord.
Work at telling others the Good News,
and fully carry out the ministry God has given you.

and im excited to see what God has in store for his people next year.
i know suffering, trials and hardship awaits but His grace abounds...

so tel me, what's your new year resolution?

how's ur Christmas?

me?...ok for 3days we slept at 4 in the morning...overall it was pretty fun...there's so much that i want to share but i dont feel like typing it (actually i dont know where to start..) hahahha :P..

*things running thru my head*

i saw my poll, what do they think about my blog..and there's 2 new votes...THANKS!! to all of you who voted eventhough we dont know each other.heheheee.i really appreciate it...God bless you...

i managed to buy Christmas gift for daddy and mummy...for the first time from my own pocket after working for 2 and a half years... i dont want to be selfish and i want to learn to bless others.i dont want to be stingy.God loves a cheerful giver..seriously, i didnt buy any new clothes or any new stuff for myself this christmas, but i feel great and blessed when i see people smile from cheek to cheek for something that i can afford to bless them...

this christmas i determined to buy something for them,even when it's a bit expensive but compared to what they have done for us, 2 bodyshop perfume is not enough... my cousin told me that i dont have to buy "bodyshop" stuff (what she meant is i dont have to bother myself..awww..sweet cuzn geyrin..hehehehe), but i know daddy and mummy is a fan of bodyshop perfume...hehehee... give 'till it hurts...and guess what? i feel great! esp when i see them smile esp daddy (he really likes it)...and she continue that mummy and daddy do not need us to give them stuff in order for them to love us (did i say it correctly cuzzie?..heehhe) well, something like that...hahahaa... it's just a token of love from my family to both of them..

ok let me explain this a lil' bit

my mummy and daddy are my cousin's parents
my mum's sister got married with an indian man whom we called daddy they are like our 2nd parents.

as for my own biological parents i called them
mamang and papang
two people that i love to death!... :)

my daddy and mummy treated us and love us like their own children...
and that's why i said even when i buy tons of body shop's perfume it's not enough compared to what they have done for us...it's never enough...never... and i am very blessed that they are part of us, that they are our family. i can write tons of stuff about them but i think i should stop here because im very good at blabbering and talking and you'll be bored reading this...hahahaa...

bla bla bla...

shout out
MErRy CHRISTmas
and BLeSsED New YEAR!!!!
geeee...ifeel weird for this Christmas...suddenly i felt tired doing the same old things.
really...i dont know...within me collide...

PEACE...

Saturday was our Christmas celebration combine service held in our new church building,
I was leading the worship for the first time in a long time, after being in ‘sabatical mode’ for few months.
There were 5hundred plus people coming and I was really nervous.
Seriously…really, really nervous. It went well tho, Glory to God!...
Salvation upon men and Glory to God. that was all I prayed for the whole day.
I don’t want people to look at me and our worship team because really
we’re not that great and it’s not a show we want to put up instead we ask God for salvation upon men and Glory to God..

Anywho, so our overseer shared from the book of Luke,
when the angels announced

Luke 2:14 (KJV)
14Glory to God in the highest, and on earth peace, good will toward men.

PEACE. He emphasize on that word.PEACE.
let me see if im not mistaken,
in greek they called it IRENE (perfect peace)
in Hebrew they called it SHALOM

1) completeness, soundness, welfare, peace
1a) completeness (in number)
1b) safety, soundness (in body)
1c) welfare, health, prosperity
1d) peace, quiet, tranquility, contentment
1e) peace, friendship
1e1) of human relationships
1e2) with God especially in covenant relationship
1f) peace (from war)
1g) peace (as adjective)

I wanted to share this because last night while attending one of our church cell group,
they were discussing also on this matter. PEACE.
So each one will have their turn to share from our own experience.
There were many diff stories of how God works in their life and experineced peace.
So it was my turn and to be honest since the day I had
this personal conversion with Christ,
I was at peace, I started to taste peace when I really get to know Christ,
the prince of peace.

But the most remarkable moment is when
we knew that my mum wont make it in her battle with cancer.
I felt peace of letting her go but I remember that
I insisted the Lord should heal her even when i know
deep deep down in me the Lord wanted to take her.
i cannot deny that i felt peace in and out of me,
my family also felt the same thing though it's painful.
it's like a thorn in our flesh but His grace is sufficient.

PEACE is one of the fruit of the Spirit.
I remember vividly, after my mum was disoriented in the hospital,
I asked my dad to switch my place because
I really need to find peace within my soul. It was chaos.
After reaching home I shut myself inside the room.
I open my bible in front of me.
And I cried a loud, yes I cried aloud.
man! I never cried that hard ever in my life. I did.
I asked God to calm my soul, I asked that I will go through
that process in stillness and with pure joy
(i thought,it was impossible for someone
to felt peace while facing death)

Gosh! Even at this moment I still can feel that very moment
I went out from that room, after hours of travailing,
crying out and wrestle with God,
there was this perfect peace gripped my soul.

Peace is not the absence of conflict.
the problem is still there but
there were peace in us and all over us.
not just emotional but also in every aspect, the Lord provide.
When I look back at those moment I can smile and Praise Him
for being such a good God. Seeing her breathless and motionless
was a thorn in my flesh, utterly painful but a blissful moment
knowing she’s at rest and at peace.

I believe it was the peace of God that kept me sane till this day.
It was truly not by my own strength, it was God, his perfect peace.
His peace manifest in us, when people came and shared how they are blessed seeing us at peace. How calmly we face this excruciating moments. It was because we are assured that she’s in a better place and
we are assured that God will continue to work in us,
will continue to provide in and out of season.

Philippians 4:6-8 (KJV)
6Be careful for nothing; but in every thing by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God.
7And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus

This verse is so meaningful to me.
This is the verse that the Lord gave to comfort me.
Truly His peace kept my heart and mind.

The world is in chaos at this moment with all the climate change,
the economic problem, all the immorality and etc.
everyone is trying to find peace whether in religion,
entertainment, worldly pleasure, sports, fashion and other stuff.
They fail to see the only place that they can gain peace is
by inviting the Prince of Peace in their heart that is Jesus.

Glory to God in the highest! Peace and goodwill towards all mankind:)

ya ampun!!

ya ampun!!! ya ampun!!! *speechlessss* selepas baca berita pasal 'leader Episcopal' respon... ya ampun!! drg benarkan lesbian jadi bishop...what the heck?!..seriously, aku bukan menentang org2 yang gay tho i will not tolerate with that kind of sin BUT it's insane to put this person as a bishop!...di dalam nama kristian...ya ampun!!!... dan yang sot nya lagi salah satu bishop yang support ini kegilaan pernah buat statement yang Tuhan Yesus bukan lah satu2nya jalan kehidupan dan kepada Bapa..did i read it correctly?!..yes...that's what she said...punyalah kebodohan!..haaaaaaiiihhhhh....memang dunia ni mau kiamat sudah...seriously, drg mengutuk nama Tuhan macam tu...they thought they are 'holy'..i mean what's wrong with their head? what's inside their brain? drg ndak takut ka sama Tuhan...kebodohan yang teramat sangat... bagus drg buat cult sendiri dari menghancurkan tubuh kristus... drg ndak takut ka judgement Tuhan?...they thot God is dead, pasal Tuhan diam saja for a season doesnt mean he's going to keep quiet forever..kebodohan yang teramat sangat...sangaaaaattttt....sangaaaaatttt!!!!....

pictures!

few pictures while visiting my mum's graveyard....

missing reading...

it's been a while since i havent read any book.
i missed sitting in my room and read a a book.
im thinking what kind of book i should look for?
aside from bible i dont know what sepsific book i should read.
any suggestion?
i want a christian book of course...
*thinking*
i remember when i heard first about my mum diagnosed with cancer.
i couldnt understand what im feeling, i couldnt grasp and gather my emotion.
as i sit and wait upon God in my sister's room, then i noticed there's this one book
'beyond ourselves' by catherine marshal.. though the title was not really attractive i can say.
i can feel a conviction to read it. so i took that book and i began to read.
i read and read, and never stopped.
God was really speaking to me thru her life's story
and of course thru his word as a confirmation.
she experinced loosing her loved one and sickness
but she found God in all this thing.
she saw the mighty hand of God in her weaknesses.
she felt the peace of God in her brokenness.
i recommend all of you to read this book :)...

im back...

i couldnt get online yesterday..it was a public holiday yesterday and i woke up at 11 after that went straight to church and i was surprised seeing a lot of our church member 'gotong royong' to clean up our new church building and i thought only the youth will be there i didnt expect ALL the church member will lend a hand..and it was beautiful seeing the youth, the kids, from english and bahasa department came and help to decorate and clean up the church. well i arrived late, but i did found something to do. hehehe..tho i feel really guilty at that moment.

and tonight we'll have our first service in our new church building. after finishing doing our work we sat and just look around. i cant believe somehow that we're in our new church building. PRAISE GOD!..all glory to God...im going to lead the worship tonight. im pretty scared, it's been a while since i 'rest' from music ministry and here i am for the first time in a long time leading hundred of people (it's a combine service and christmas celebration)..i rely on you Lord...seriously...im depending on you God...

so here some of the pix of our new church building...

God and I

GOD. he deserve to be praise, he deserve EVERYTHING.
i even owe my life to him.
He deserve to be love and worship.
the least that i can do is to die for His sake
because of his unfailing love towards me

I. what do i deserve?
the only thing that i deserve is death!
yes, dead in my transgression and iniquities.

GOD. for God so loved the world
He gave His son.
Christ was not sentenced to die
but he told His Father
"let me take the sin of the world upon me,
because they know not what they do"

I. He saw that i need a savior
So God send and Christ came, clothed in human flesh
He know that every soul needs a savior.
yes, every soul needs a savior

drink deeply...

as i read thru my friend's email. i noticed that i also received the same thing from God. as we all know, Christmas is just around the corner.even when december approached. i've been praying that i will truly understand this special season in my life.

PERSONAL UNDERSTANDING. Not the sunday school type
of understanding about Christmas
but a pure understanding and conviction that
comes from the Holy Spirit of what Christmas is all about.
Not just a general knowledge about Christmas,
it's not how much do i know about Jesus birth story
or his family tree, geneology or geographically
or the exact date and season when he was born.
or how many christmas carols i can memorize.
but the kind of knowledge that brought me to my knees
knowing that i am doom to die if Christ didnt came to earth.
the kind of knowledge that will increase
my love towards my Jesus.
the kind of knowledge that brings conviction to my heart
acknowledging that my soul needs a Savior.
the kind of knowledge that will make my heart overflows
with thanksgiving and new songs of love.

and yes the Holy Spirit unveiled the truth one by one.
i am overwhelmed as He explain.
"For God so loved the world"
blows me away as i truly understood what it meant.

king solomon wrote,
"...Oh, lover and beloved, eat and drink!Yes, drink deeply of your love!"
in holman's bible translation wrote,
" Eat, friends! Drink, be intoxicated with love! "

monday night the Lord spoke in my heart if i want to understand his love dont calculate (because his love is beyond measure, our logic cannot contain his unfailing love) but drink deeply of His love, yes drink. until it satisfy you. i simply read his word and the
Holy spirit unveiled the truth, all i did is drink...
drink deeply of His love.
the more i understand this love story the more i am
intoxicated by his unfailing love.
Christmas is a love story of a Creator and His creation.

let me see..

my friend recently emailed me about her dream. to be honest at first i was reluctant to read (hehehe..peace:p)... i thought it'll will a normal dream with indistinct message. as i read and read, it was a powerful dream. One that has a powerful message.

Then I move my head to my left side slowly

where the window placed which is 5 feet away from me,
thinking and expecting it might be a ghost and see with

my two eyes a blurry shadow man

(because of the spot on the window)

descending from the sky almost touch the ground

for a minute with barbed wire as the crown on his head

and wound still bleeding in all over his body with fabric,

clothing only the down part of his body and

immediately I know that it was Jesus

and the whole of my body, including my hand and feet

lay down straight with face on the ground,

not able to face Him because I know,

I very know on the spot and on that very moment

that He is WORTHY and I am unworthy

and on that very moment also I told myself

how can I not known, how can I not feel,

how can I not AWARE of how WORTHY He is

when I was in the real world, when I was living my daily life,

or when I was sinning and wound Him

for all my transgression and lawless deed???

This happen less than a minute then He ascending again

to the sky above and wasn't able to see Him anymore

because of the limitation size of the window.

Then I wake up. It was a dream.

i know it's more than a dream.

matthew 5, blessed are those who have a pure heart for they will see God.

and she continued...

I can't help but feel restless and cried for awhile.

Because His worthiness I can still feel and

experience even after I wake up.

Isaiah and Peter felt the same thing. when they saw who God is, His glory and the true reality of Christ they fall face down and isaiah cried out

Isaiah 6:5

"Woe to me!" I cried. "I am ruined! For I am a man of unclean lips, and I live among a people of unclean lips, and my eyes have seen the King, the LORD Almighty."

whenever i see Christ i saw what a great sinner i am, a sinner condemed, unclean.

my weaknesses reflect God's glory in my life.

God is soo beautiful.

Brain damaging Habits

1. No Breakfast

People who do not take breakfast are going to have a lower blood sugar level. This leads to an insufficient supply of nutrients to the brain causing brain degeneration.

2 . Overeating=2 0

It causes hardening of the brain arteries, leading to a decrease in mental power.

3. Smoking

It causes multiple brain shrinkage and may lead to Alzheimer disease.

4. High Sugar consumption

Too much sugar will interrupt the absorption of proteins and nutrients causing malnutrition and may interfere with brain development.

5. Air Pollution

The brain is the largest oxygen consumer in our 20 body. Inhaling polluted air decreases the supply of oxygen to the brain, bringing about a decrease in brain efficiency.

6 . Sleep Deprivation

Sleep allows our brain to rest.. Long term deprivation from sleep will accelerate the death of brain cells..

7. Head covered while sleeping

Sleeping with the head covered increases the concentration of carbon dioxide and decrease concentration of oxygen that may lead to brain damaging effects.

8. Working your brain during illness

Working hard or studying with sickness may lead to a decrease in effectiveness of the brain as well as damage the brain.

9. Lacking in stimulating thoughts

Thinking is the best way to train our brain, lacking in brain stimulation thoughts may cause brain shrinkage.

10. Talking Rarely

Intellectual conversations will promote the efficiency of the brain

i feel like saying this

Holy, holy is the Lord God Almighty...

Yes, You are holy Lord...

Christmas season..

if you do not want to hear ramblings and a lot of blah, blah, blah...please click on the next blog...

why do i hate Christmas?...actually it's not christmas to be exact. i mean end of the year...why do christmas fall on the end of the year? who's the person in charge of putting christmas at the end of the year?..i have no idea and im too lazy to google it up.. im tired..i want to sleeeeeeeppppp.i slept at 1 last night, came late from carroling... i love and amazed by the true meaning of Christmas. God gave His Son, He love us deeply but gosh!! all the activities and program overlook the true meaning of it... there are so many sounds and music, so many shopping list and food (yum..yumm :p )...i think food would be ok on this festive season..hahhaa...anyways, my point is. we concentrate so much on decorations and gifts, putting much effort on the outer look, spending money on unneccesary stuff...but how about our inner self? does our heart feel peace on this christmas season?do our soul felt true joy? when i was small i describe christmas as loud, music and dance, well nothing wrong with that...and beside it's my family tradition to dance in every occasion...ok im not saying the kind of dance that you can find in pub, club ect. we dance waltz, cha-cha and others (i know it's lame..hehehe). we have this hispanic blood running thru our vein so yeah. i think my family are pretty weird for asian people since most asian countries are not so expressive, reserve, very shy (except for phillipines) we dance we sing and we laughed till the dawn comes. some people cannot except it but many enjoyed it...ok were was i?...blah..blahh.. blahh... hhmmmmm...o yeah, so..i thought the more the merrier, the merrier the more it'll sound like Christmas...but as i grow up physically and spiritually i've learned that even in quietness i can also celebrate and feel genuine peace and perfect joy. my mum used to tell me before. when we get older you'll be more 'quiet', as you matured in age you'll find serenity more attractive. yeah, i agree... ill get this back as soon as possible. i think all i need today is my pillow, my thick blanket and my bed...i need to sleep!!!!...

Everything

God in my living

There in my breathing

God in my waking

God in my sleeping

God in my resting

There in my working

God in my thinking

God in my speaking

Be my everything

Be my everything

Be my everything

Be my everything

God in my hoping

There in my dreaming

God in my watching

God in my waiting

God in my laughing

There in my weeping

God in my hurting

God in my healing

Christ in me

Christ in me

Christ in me the hope of glory

You are everything

Christ in me

Christ in me

Christ in me the hope of glory

Be my everything

1 Corinthians 10:31 (KJV)
Whether therefore ye eat, or drink,

or whatsoever ye do, do all to the glory of God.

i dont know how important this is in other people's life. living for God's glory. im currently reading R.A Torrey book called the power of prayer and it really make me realize that how much i need revival and how important it is for me to live a godly life. a holy life. He must be in every department of my life. i noticed the verse, it didnt stated "whether therefore ye pray, or fast.." it is written, as you can read. EAT and DRINK. meaning, even the simplest and tiniest thing we do, our everyday activities, our everyday chores, our everyday routine. we should DO ALL TO THE GLORY OF GOD. like the song above. Christ should be in EVERYTHING. whether in my facebooking or emailing. whether in the way i dress up or the way i speak. if i want God to be glorified in my family church or community, GOd must be first glorified in my life. He must be a 'real thing' in me. even as i wrote all these, im also struggling everyday to be more Christ like. i know His Spirit will pull me through. this is my prayer.

tired!!!

hi:) last thursday we went to telupid. we took off from sandakan around 7.30am. after visiting all the prisoners families in telupid. kg. intelibon, kg. buis, kg. ansuan, kg.???...ok i forgot the name...we arrived home in sandakan around 11pm.anyways, it was tiring but i really enjoyed the trip... we walked how many miles, we cross the river and went inside, inside, inside the interior. man! it was crazy, thinking that there's so many people living inside. i was surprised of how many local people were still living inside, they were not exposed with internet and others.hahaha..seriously... i'll post out our pictures soon.

now im soooooooo busy, the prison christmas celebration is just around the corner and there's so many things need to be done. and yesterday we just finished packed 700 gifts away for the prisoners, belivers and unbelievers. we manage to pack all 700 gift in one day, 4people were helping me and o ya, 3 kids..hhehehe...thank you Lord for their willingness to help.my back pain is killing me this past 2days...

ok, talking about the visit.when i saw all the local people, hear their stories and saw how they lived their life. i dont know somehow i felt im in love with this people. sudenly compassion, deep compassion entwined my heart.though i cannot understand what they are saying but somehow i can feel their burden and sufferings. we visited all the families that has become victim of their father's sin. i want to share more about this trip but i have to go now. im going inside the prison to visit the prisoners and we're going to take 100 bibles inside to give them during christmas celebration...im excited!!!...yay:)!

why, why, why Delilah...

Past few weeks I felt free, peaceful and FREEE!!..heehhehe. I felt I do gain my privacy life back.
I’m talking about social networking. I’ve deleted all my account in any website that I’m in. though all these is not my main reason why I took this decision.

They keep on asking me. Why? Why? Why?... why do I delete my account. What’s the big deal? Why you delete your account Sheila?

I do ask myself again and again. And it’s not worth answering them. I mean they will not understand.

When I open my account, I saw all the pictures, how I have lived my life, I saw all the words that I’ve spoken and written. I saw all the nonsense I did.hahaha… and I hate it. yes, there were happy moments and ect but I don’t want to stay the same, I don’t want to do the same thing, living the same life, having the same mentality, speaking the same words, laughing the same jokes, tolerating the same sin and others.

Deleting all my account is just a symbol of me letting go of my past. It’s just a symbol. looking at my old photos challenged me to change. i know people kept telling me i've changed drastically, but im not content. i want GOd to change me more like him.When I deleted my account, It felt terrible but im telling myself that im going to let go off my past and be a changed person by God's grace. i will not dwell in my past failures, my past hurts, my past dissapoinments.

In these past few years, there are so many things I’ve experienced, the wonderful, blissful moments and also hellish moments. Where I told God just take my life, unfortunately I’m still breathing… hehehe. I’m just telling myself that all this social networking have no authority over my life coz I felt I’m addicted to it. For some they will just laugh all the way though they know they’ve addicted to something that doesn’t worth at all. I’ve wasted hours and hours doing social networking, wasted money and my energy.

Like what I’ve said, it’s just a symbol. Social networking is not evil, really, it’s not.
This action that I’ve taken, it’s not applicable to some…hahhaa… this is my personal opinion and conviction; I felt this is the right thing. It didn’t do any good thing in my life for the past few years. I don’t want to remain in the same place and doing the same thing over and over again.

The Lord is dealing with me since the day my mum went to be with the Lord until today. And the Holy Spirit has work tremendously in and out of me, reminding me and encouraging me to make things right in my life, those little2 things that at first I thought was not a big deal actually it is. To make things right between me and God and towards others.

it's time to clean this old house, time to leave all the madness behind, time to move on, time to leave what is unnecessary, leave what is temporal chase what is eternal:)...


I was reading this book called “the power of prayer”by R.A Torrey. he mentioned, we profess ourselves Christian but does God rule in EVERY DEPARTMENT of our life?
The word “every department” just makes me ponder over my life… does he?
Does he rule over my speech? My thoughts? My facebooking? My every decision?

In the book of 2 timothy and Titus, Paul encouraged both to LIVE our life according to God’s word... "In everything set them an example by doing what is good. In your teaching show integrity, seriousness and soundness of speech that cannot be condemned, so that those who oppose you may be ashamed because they have nothing bad to say about us...So that in every way they will make the teaching about God our Savior attractive” Does my account reflect God? I don’t know, but I don’t think so..hehehe..

I’m going to make a new one in near future but this time I want to make it right. I want to delight my self in the Lord in every thing that I do. EVERYTHING!

But for this season I want to take a break from social networking and examine my life. I really enjoyed this privacy at this moment and it really make me more focused to what i've been called to do.

And for some reason, my heart felt peace after deleting all my account. I don’t know why, but I felt peace and I know I’m doing the right thing. People can say whatever they want. My sister called me weird…hahhahaa… but I am assured with my decision because I have this peace: )

after reading all these, you dont have to agree with me, seriously...hehhee..

To devote oneself to Christ is the most fulfilling life I can say.

one by one

define your building sphere...

i will define/elaborate and explain one by one. what i've received from God this past few years. it will take time, i need to dig my old boxes looking for all my notebooks. i noticed there's a link from what i received 5years back until recently. im going to pick pieces by pieces. *thinking deep thought*

wacky weekend!

SATURDAY...
right after we finished doing our hair..edelyn love her new hair cut..

passing thru...

brian, edelyn, richard adn joanne...

yeah, she missed richard so much..you dont have to hugged him tightly edelyn...hehehe

me and donald...

me and joanne..2min break from our choir practice..





SUNDAY....

again...the same faces...hehehe

after our sunday service...

revenge?

funny faces 1

funny faces 2...lolz...my nose is big...yyeeerrr....hahhah

funny faces 3

funny faces 4....

what a tiring weekend. but we manage and by God's grace, able to smile and laugh throughout the day, it was crazy! all the practices in one day, running here and there, attending our friend's engagement party, combine sercives, interchurch c'mas celebration and etc..

Childrens camp part II

while waiting their turn to use the toilet..

smile kids!:)

lina and kristy

hahaha...waiting for mary taking her bath. as usual.. picture, pisture:P

joanne and kristy...

here they are, taking picture without me!!!...

kristy and pinky

at last..thats my face..hehehe

aira, gloria...busy talking and playing...heheheh