random stuff from my crazy thoughts

are we CHRISTIAN meant to live a 'happy life', are we meant only to fellowship in our gated community?just to enjoy the fellowship within our own people, within our boundaries, are we designed by God just to go with the flow of the world? are we meant just to live life?

i observed that many christian tried to avoid conflicts and especially persecution. and it makes me sick! i've heard Christian leaders said this "you can evangalize to anyone just dont get near muslim people, you'll ended up in jail"... so what?!... so what?!..im sick and tired when christian try to play safe...try to avoid persecution...i wanna cry, in fact i did cry many times..i cried about myself, why do i corrupt my mind together with those who are afraid of sharing the suffering of Christ.